Personal Testimonies
Luis Lukibuel Ramos
PUERTO RICO
My name is Luis Ramos, a.k.a., Lukibuel. I am a Taino Boricua residing in New York City. I am happily married to Esdras Maroya Santana, a Kiskeyana Taino. We are blessed with two children named Deminan and Anani. As a family we are proud of our Taino heritage.
Generally, there are people who question Taino ethnicity. It is a reality
that confronts many Tainos in the Caribbean and U.S. Diaspora. Why do I
identify with Taino ethnicity in the midst of negative criticism or ridicule?
Many people in the Latino or Academic communities believe that I am not
proud of being Puerto Rican or that I want to reject my Spanish heritage.
Then there are those in the Native American or mainstream society that
think that I want to be Indian or what I call the "dances with wolves syndrome."
I have learned to laugh at these inquisitions and stand proud of who I
am. Why do I identify as a Taino?
In the late sixties, turbulence and revolution were the cries heard
throughout New York City and other parts of the country. It was a call
to liberate oneself from an oppressive government that propagated war,
racism, and an outdated status quo. It was truly a time of change. Ten
years before the riots and protests, my humble Aunt decided to take the
first commercial flight from San Juan, Puerto Rico to New York City. After
marrying her childhood love, they decided to learn from a Jewish couple
in Brooklyn the art of owning and managing a grocery store. Their success
made it possible for other family members to explore New York City. The
majority of my family were poor jibaro families who were very religious.
Their religion was one not rooted in the weekly ritual of Roman Catholicism,
but from the power of popular religiosity that syncretized Taino, African,
and Spanish religious practices.
My parents were succumbed to the negativity of the 1960's and left behind a screaming child. It was during this time period that my great-grandparents arrived to Brooklyn, N.Y with the traditions I now desperately protect, and dare teach my children. My great-grandmother knew how to calm a colic baby. My new elderly parents came from another world that appeared superstitious and magical to the Americans, namely, our Landlord/Super, who was a Polish-Catholic holocaust survivor. He often called her a witch! I remembered the tabacco smoke that filled the air after a healing ceremony or when my great-grandfather would make cigars for money. I remember my great-grandmother shouting at me if I interrupted her during a ceremony. Tabacco and plants dipped in water was all I could remember. I could still smell the aromas. Also, I cannot forget the botanica owner with the small cigar in his mouth that constantly argued with my great-grandmother on weekends over the price of the plants she used for her ceremonies.
Why do I identify with Taino ethnicity? I wished my father and uncles did. Maybe they would still be alive smoking cigars and not weed or heroine. I am a Taino because this is who I am. The Tabacco ceremonies, the plants, the water, the family, the healing ceremonies, and my aunt who told me we are from the Indians tell me who I am. Yes, it's true my family was upset that I tried to recreate the ceremonies. But they are also upset about the alcoholism, the drug addiction, and the diabetes that has wiped out my family worst than the smallpox. They see me as a reminder of what was and what was left behind. My survival as a Taino depends on the revival of the traditions that was buried in a small cemetery in Brooklyn. It is being resurrected in my family. God willing, my children will carry on the legacy that will not be buried with my wife and I.